Signs of Life

Wow it’s been a minute, right? Hoping everyone in my blogosphere has been safe and healthy. We have been very lucky.

I didn’t want to write during quarantine for a few reasons. The weight of what was happening in our world felt too heavy for the comic relief that is generally my life and I stayed so low key during quarantine that there was little to write about. The kids were quiet, no dating, no job – days passed uneventfully for the most part. I didn’t even leave my home until early June.

I had a health crisis (does this even surprise anyone anymore?) in late April/early May that lead to the decision I needed my final surgery sooner rather than later. My insides never recovered from Mexico (needless to say my outside was still hideous looking) and I began spiking very, very high fevers that became concerning to my surgeon. He decided I needed the surgery sooner than later and, to my surprise and delight, suggested a plastic surgeon to do the second part of the surgery. Long story short, I had a very major and intensive surgery June 2, spent a long while in hospital while my body tried to remember how to work, and then a longer recovery at home.

10 weeks later I’m happy to report that my heath is excellent, I am able to eat mostly normally and do most active things again. Since the hospital, I’ve been much less frightened about covid and started living (albeit very carefully) again.

Everyone has a different opinion about covid and I’m not here to debate anyone’s opinion. I spent a long, long time in the hospital around multiple doctors and nurses to form my own opinion of how I wanted to live once I was recovered and, so far, I’m glad I’ve been less anxious and uptight about living a mostly careful life. My choices may not be your choices and that’s fine, but I hope we don’t debate or politicize my decision to live the way I have chosen.

Once I decided I was ready to live more normally again I began to expand my germ circle. I visited my sister and spent time with her and her friends. I began to see more friends and welcomed them with hugs and kisses. I had allowed my children out of the home long before I ever left, but was no longer pouncing on them with Lysol spray the moment they walked in the door. I fired up the dating apps. I got my nails and hair done. Life was still too quiet, I’m still unemployed and single, but I began to feel like I could have a bit of normalcy again.

I debated what I wanted to write about. We are in such a horrible state of affairs in the USA that it still feels somewhat banal to write about dating but then I figured that’s pretty much what my blog was designed for so why not?

So, I’m back, I think. I have to see how it feels to write again. I admit I’m quite selfish with my blog and don’t read many other blogs because I’m happy to interact with whomever is here reading and I write to empty my mind.

If you’re here reading, welcome back. I’m always happy to have you. ❤️

Author: Madeline Harper

My journey through divorce and an emotional and sexual reawakening. Love, laughter, friendships, family and heartbreak included. And there is sex, lots of it, so close your eyes and turn the page if that's not for you! While I started this blog as an endeavor to journal my thoughts and feelings in an attempt to better understand myself, it has become an amazing platform from which I have met some of the most interesting and wonderful people in my life. My path is often crooked, but I hope you will share in the journey with me.

10 thoughts on “Signs of Life”

  1. Happy that you’re doing well! Me? I’ve been working from home the last few months, and am newly single after an almost 3 year relationship. But… he can’t seem to quit the thoughts of our sex life and neither can I! Might evolve into a fwb thing, who knows. Keep safe!!!


  2. It’s great to hear from you, M. Glad you’re hanging in there and healthy. Things here are fine; healthy, employed (although the side gig, my singing career, has collapsed, so all the more thankful I have the main gig). I live in an area where most people are on the same page about the pandemic and place their trust in the science so there is harmony there, and when schools reopen, it will be all distanced learning by government mandate. Not easy, but at least consistent. Just holding on….


    1. Hi!!! I am so happy to hear this! We are also in a very good spot in my state, but we will be opening schools in a month (so they say…). Im glad you are working and even more glad to hear you are healthy. 🙂


    1. Yea – Flori-DUH is right! 😂😂. NY/NJ want nothing to do with the rest of the country, we dealt without shizzle. Lol. It’s all insanity at this point. Hope you’re well and everyone on your end safe and healthy as well.


  3. The way the US is we can’t not live life because of a pandemic. I have lots of opinions about how things should be done but ultimately the pandemic has been in killer not just as a nasty virus but by loneliness and seclusion.

    I’ve been working from home. My spouse and I are sick of each other. I am glad to hear from you!

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