Sometimes I Surprise Even Myself

I posted about the IG stalking and the burner text last week and read through your comments. I always take the comments to heart because many times you see things for a different perspective than I do.

I was happy Trixie was contained pretty quickly – the text was dumb but it ended there for me.

What really surprised my was he was still looking even after the text and his that made me feel.

I didn’t want him there.

The past weekend was my sisters wedding and I figured I would be posting quite a bit. Why should he see? Or, if it’s his wife, why should she? Either way, I didn’t want them seeing or sharing in any of my family moments.

So I blocked him.

I was too busy to check over the weekend who was looking at my posts, but today when I had a bit more time, I looked. And I didn’t like what I saw.

Remember when I spotted him on a live Peloton ride and I went and gave him a “high-five” and he went and changed his name immediately? Well, suddenly I had a new person looking at my posts with his Peloton name – so of course I knew it was him. I checked the profile, it was a new profile with no photo and no posts which reinforced it was him. So I blocked that name too.

Now that bothered me. I don’t know why. But it did.

Why does he want to look so badly that he goes and changes his name? He could have replied to my text differently rather than sarcastically and chose not to. But he is stalking.


I changed my profile to private while the wedding posts cycle through (they are only up for 24 hours) I don’t like to keep my profile private because that’s how we interact with one another in the Peloton community. But I can open it up again later this week.

Anyway, both are blocked and I will be on the lookout for any new ones.

What do you think?

Author: Madeline Harper

My journey through divorce and an emotional and sexual reawakening. Love, laughter, friendships, family and heartbreak included. And there is sex, lots of it, so close your eyes and turn the page if that's not for you! While I started this blog as an endeavor to journal my thoughts and feelings in an attempt to better understand myself, it has become an amazing platform from which I have met some of the most interesting and wonderful people in my life. My path is often crooked, but I hope you will share in the journey with me.

5 thoughts on “Sometimes I Surprise Even Myself”

  1. Congrats for blocking him. Yes! I think that the universe has a sick sense of humor, and when we try on a new habit for size, as hard as it is, it tests us a little. You aren’t blocking Tony to do anything to him. You’re doing it to give you peace of mind. But, it didn’t right away. Because tony wasn’t ready. So you blocked him again. But now your brain is tickled and wants to know what’s going on, so it’s your job to make that stop. And you stop by not caring. By making yourself not care. I think he’ll get it. His only other resort is to come up with a more convoluted way to follow you. Don’t obsess over new people who follow you. Take a break from checking them out. If you don’t recognize them, then don’t dig. If your profile is normally public and you don’t need to give approval to follow, then ask yourself to not really look over who is checking you out.

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  2. This man sent you into a tailspin that you’ve stopped yourself from doing after all this time. Please keep him blocked! He or she(?) is stalking you and that’s not a good thing. Walk away for good! You are worth so much more than this!


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