Hello, Again? Back in Hospital

Well here I am again and not at all happy about it.

This week I started to have pain under my breastbone. It started Sunday night and may have been the cause of my poor sleeping more than the ring on Tony’s finger (which would be a good thing, right?). By Thursday evening the pain had intensified beyond what I could manage and I knew the ER was on the agenda for the evening.

I had been careful, watching what I eat, taking some gas x and seeing if anything was influencing the pain in any way. I couldn’t find anything.

By the time we got to the hospital Thursday night, I was bowled over in pain and out of breath. They took me in quickly administering fluids and morphine right away. Sent off for X-rays and cat scans pretty quickly.

Then the surgeon arrived and my hopes plummeted.

The ER doc (as well as myself) were thinking pancreatis or something along those lines. But the surgeon debunked the results by saying I had another bowel blockage.

I just.wanted.to.cry.

This meant we were going down a familiar path. I would be intubated with an NG tube, no food or liquids, no narcotics and a lot of patience. They did give me a strong opioid called Tramdol which worked for the time being and anti-inflammatory meds which helped.

I did cry once the tube was placed because I couldn’t believe I was back here again, in this horrible situation. I knew now they would admit me as well.

I was terrified that having the surgeon involved meant I was looking at being cut open again.

Going back to the 9th floor in the room directly across where I spent my 4 weeks in Sept/Oct was like a horrible horror story. But all the nurses remembered me and were so kind. They couldn’t believe how much better I looked as compared to my first stay. I suppose there’s some compensation there – that even with the damn tube coming out of my nose that they thought I looked good! 😂

I didn’t get to the room until 6am or so, and then rounds start soon after, so I was feeling really crappy after a night full of pain and testing with no sleep.

As it turned out, the pain began to disappear once I was settled and I didn’t need any further pain killers. They had me on simple fluids to see if my body could recover on its own.

Another cat scan and X-ray followed during the day and they could see that the initial contrast was making its way through the bowel. I told them all they needed to do was give me a cup of coffee and I would be pooping in no time! No one bought that.

By evening I pooped on my own. I did a little poop dance of joy 💩 because I knew that meant my body was doing its job.

Early the next morning the surgeon agreed and the tube came out. The doctor arrived some time later and said if I stick to liquids and soft foods for a week they would allow me to go home that day. He knew I knew the bariatric surgery ropes so he was willing to be lenient. I wasn’t too happy to have to go back to a liquid diet, but it’s better than being in the hospital and monitored here.

Ultimately they believe it was a bowel blockage that I caught super early. The NG tube allowed my bowels to rest for 36 hours without doing any work. The diet allows for further rest from whatever the blockage or inflammation was from. There is no real “reason” it happened or any way to prevent it from happening again. It’s just because I have had so many abdominal surgeries and bowel resections.

I’m waiting now for my son to pick me up so I can rest at home.

I’m bummed this happened in the middle of my exercise streak, but I will exercise lightly for the next week so the habit continues to form. I already felt myself falling into a hole lying on the hospital room for 2 nights. I couldn’t even focus enough to watch TV or even read.

Let’s hope, like the surgeon hopes, that this doesn’t happen again and I continue on my merry way.

Author: Madeline Harper

My journey through divorce and an emotional and sexual reawakening. Love, laughter, friendships, family and heartbreak included. And there is sex, lots of it, so close your eyes and turn the page if that's not for you! While I started this blog as an endeavor to journal my thoughts and feelings in an attempt to better understand myself, it has become an amazing platform from which I have met some of the most interesting and wonderful people in my life. My path is often crooked, but I hope you will share in the journey with me.

17 thoughts on “Hello, Again? Back in Hospital”

  1. Oh no! I am so sorry that you had this set back. My Like is a show of support & love.

    OK, you will have to climb back onto your Horse of Good Habits IMMEDIATELY, but just walk through those habits and don’t try trotting or cantering this week. Be kind to yourself, but stick with the habits. They are working.

    Your body is still adjusting to its new normal, so there is nothing you could have done to prevent this. Don’t kick yourself, just pick yourself up and jump back on the horse. Hugs to you!

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  2. Sorry to hear about this ‘bump in the road’ (or bowels as the case may be…sorry, I had to…hope you can laugh a bit now about it) and hoping you can recover quickly now that your home. You’re in my thoughts and I’m sending speedy recovery vibes your way…the Peleton is waiting patiently for your return. You’ve got this, Madeline…it’s simply a little detour.

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    1. Lol. Yes, I’m trying to be positive! I got back on that bike the day after I came home so I did give myself one day at home of rest.

      I do feel stronger when I work out. Thanks Cam 💪🏻❤️


  3. My step-daughter had the gastric bypass surgery and there’s not too many days when she’s not calling us about her issues post-surgery, most of which involve her eating stuff she’s not supposed to eat and overeating. We keep telling her that if she keep ignoring what her doctor is telling her to do and when she can do it, she’s gonna keep having issues but, kids… so hard-headed…

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    1. Yes! Many of the people I know who had the surgery do that and “work through” the pain – not me! No thanks you! I have enough medical marvel issues without adding obvious mistakes to them.

      The nutritionist and the surgeons and I reviewed my eating since I still log everything daily. No red flags except maybe I’m not eating enough most days and it’s why my weight loss is slow (fine by me, enough loose skin as it is). I follow a good keto diet and they were both happy with my food choices.

      I can’t eat rice – so far that’s the only thing that won’t sit well. And…I haven’t tried my bubbles 😬. You know I love my prosecco. 🍾🥂🍾


      1. When she told us she was having the surgery, I went online to see how it was done and what lifestyle changes would be in place. The surgery was… interesting to watch but I also know my step-daughter who is, indeed, hard headed and finding out the hard way. Yesterday, she went to brunch with some friends and had mimosas make with champagne… and was surprised they did a number on her.

        Sometimes it seems like she doesn’t understand how this surgery has really changed her and how something as simple as alcohol will have different effects on her, let alone continuing to eat those things the doctor keeps telling her to,avoid or,she’s not ready for yet.


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      2. Oh it was the champagne and less about the alcohol! It’s the bubbles!! Really you have to change lifelong bad habits. Or what’s the point. People gain the weight back in 5 years. I love this tool as far as a control for portion size. If it means I have to give up bubbles well then, oh well. Anything that absorbs and expands is also bad – like bread and pasta. You’ve got to change your habits.


  4. I have a friend that has had many abdominal surgeries and she has adhesions. She had to go on disability for a short amount of time. Have you ever considered that while you heal? I also had a friend go on disability after his surgery because he had a heart attack caused from the weight loss. You would have medical insurance too.

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    1. Hi – like a state disability? I thought you need to be working to obtain disability? It is the adhesions that are going to cause me long term issues, from all the surgeries. I will need at least one more surgery to help with the adhesions.


      1. No, not at all. You file through social security. It goes but your past 5 years of income or something. In fact if you can work you don’t need disability.

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      2. She occasionally still has issues but nothing like before her surgery. Her mother just had the surgery too. Apparently it is hereditary. She had 2 emergency c sections, 1 planned, kidney surgery and a botch hernia surgery.

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