Weird and Crazy Stalker Behavior

I’ve always had it. It’s been a useful skill at times.

I told myself I will write the good and the bad to hold myself accountable these next days or weeks. So here’s a strange behavior

I know I am obsessive. I always have been. Sometimes it works in my favor but I would say it causes me more grief than not.

I went on line and googled Bennett. Why? I don’t know. I really don’t. There’s nothing to see I haven’t seen before. I happened upon his childhood address, which he has shared with me personally as well as vivid descriptions of growing up in the home. Turns out the home literally went up for sale yesterday.

So I text him today and told him. No other conversation, just that. I’m sure it freaks him out to have crazy stalker Madeline taking control of the woman he thought he knew.

I didn’t make my steps yesterday or today. I actually failed miserably. And I had plenty of time to get out and walk. I just didn’t.

I think I slept 10 hours straight. I made it to the hair salon, food shopping and cooking dinner for my boys and some friends. Did some laundry and now going to read a bit.

I did log my food and I overate a little today. Not horribly but I didn’t need to.

I wonder how an obsessive mind stops obsessing eventually. It does happen. I just don’t know how it’s happened in the past. I’ve been obsessing over Bennett much too long.

Author: Madeline Harper

My journey through divorce and an emotional and sexual reawakening. Love, laughter, friendships, family and heartbreak included. And there is sex, lots of it, so close your eyes and turn the page if that's not for you! While I started this blog as an endeavor to journal my thoughts and feelings in an attempt to better understand myself, it has become an amazing platform from which I have met some of the most interesting and wonderful people in my life. My path is often crooked, but I hope you will share in the journey with me.

3 thoughts on “Weird and Crazy Stalker Behavior”

  1. I know what you mean… I obsessed over a man for the last four years and it didn’t even begin to fade until I stopped giving it my attention, slowly at first if faded but now… well it is much better… love and peace to you… Michelle

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  2. Doing “research” makes you feel closer to him. I know: I’ve done it myself. It’s not “stalking” if it’s research. But the more you do it, the more you will feel connected. Break the habit!

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