I came in early this morning just so I can write. I can’t even express how happy I am to be working and entirely overwhelmed at work! Never thought I would hear those words from my mouth.
Despite the fact he shouldn’t be contacting me, I was still angry and hurt Bennett didn’t say Happy Mothers Day. Yes, it was best he didn’t break contact, but hurt all the same.
Perhaps the anger will do me some good in letting go. I am still obsessively thinking about it, more than I should, and it’s easier to be angry about assuming he’s going full on back to his marriage. I don’t know, I am surmising, but it’s my expectation.
I noticed yesterday that he “liked” a public post of mine on facebook. He always said he would find ways to let me know he’s thinking of me and I suppose that’s his way. We are not friends on facebook, but this was a public post. I noticed I felt a bit calmer – maybe he is as heartbroken as I am? I’m trying not to let that one silly thing become more than it is. He misses me, but the situation has not changed, fine, move on.
This is the longest we have gone with no contact – 10 days. Previously he never made it this far.
I’m happy to be so distracted at work there is little time for the random thoughts of him to creep in, and when they do, I’m mostly angry.