Bennett reached out last week and we spoke about maintaining no contact. I am doing better than I expected based on my history, but I do admit that when he contacts me a few times in a row I get sucked in.
At some point he explained to me he planned to speak to his wife on Wednesday. Waiting for a specific family/kid event to pass and then it would be the next night.
I knew the minute he told me it was a mistake. As much as I tried not to focus on Wednesday I could tell my thoughts would drift back there.
I’ve been keeping busy with random dates and friends. I made sure I had plans every night the past week just to ensure I didn’t fall into a trap of wanting to see him.
After I arrived home Wednesday there was another text. It wasn’t happening because she had friends over and they were drinking too much.
I asked if he planned to do it this week and his answer was “that’s my plan.”
And we went back to not speaking.
I didn’t get a text from him last night or this morning so my immediate thought is he didn’t speak to her.
I realize how crappy it was for him to break no contact and tell me when he planned the conversation. I just think he’s so desperate to keep me in his life that he wants to prove he will move himself forward. I feel it too.
But in the meantime, no word sucks.