Remember to Write

I really haven’t had the time to sit and write the way I used to.  It’s not just the time, but the inclination.  So far, on this blog, I have only written as a diary and real life situations, but I also like to write fiction.

I’m not a very good writer, my fiction was never really intended for public consumption, but for the man I was writing it for.  I have been lucky to meet several men in the past 2.5 years that enjoy my writing and my stories.

As I have been struggling to determine how to make it through another 5 days of holiday apart from Bennett with lots of negative emotion swirling, I had been wracking my brain to think what I could do to turn away all this negativity and it occurred to me I could write.

I would write for him.  He loves a sexy story, and I could write us into some kind of sexy adventure, much as I had done in the past.  I had started this for him right before I started my new job, but, once I started that job, I couldn’t focus on any personal writing.  What little I did write was sheerly personal here on the blog, to clear my head.

I refuse to fall into any kind of depression over Bennett and our inevitable conclusion, I won’t live through a repeat of last year when I knowingly and purposefully chose this path.  Those words sound so strong but my emotional constitution is laughing at me and saying”let’s see who wins this round!”

Well, then, game on.  I am going to put myself into a positive place.  One where I remember what it means when you first mean someone and feel that pull of limerence that feels so much like falling head over heels in love.  What it was like when I saw it directed at me for the first time in such force and clarity.

I’m going to write a sexy story for him.  For me.  Just to write about anything that makes me feel good that’s not grounded in reality.

January is around the corner, which means, if I’m true to myself, so is this last chapter of my life.  I am really ok with that because I chose it.  Somehow I am going to keep reminding myself that I make conscious choices every day and one of those should be self-care.  I love to write, so write I will.

Now, I realize many of you don’t like fiction…so I won’t be offended if you don’t read because I’m doing it for myself.  But if you do read, I hope you enjoy my dreams and fantasies.

Author: Madeline Harper

My journey through divorce and an emotional and sexual reawakening. Love, laughter, friendships, family and heartbreak included. And there is sex, lots of it, so close your eyes and turn the page if that's not for you! While I started this blog as an endeavor to journal my thoughts and feelings in an attempt to better understand myself, it has become an amazing platform from which I have met some of the most interesting and wonderful people in my life. My path is often crooked, but I hope you will share in the journey with me.

8 thoughts on “Remember to Write”

  1. I love fiction and it’s a great diversion for you right now so be it. I write lots of fiction and my followers seem to stay the same or I seem to add more. Get out your prosecco and write, write, and write some more! Here’s wishing you a very happy New Year!

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