Hot! Hot! Hot!

Every once in a while a just my type comes across the dating app.  And then the just my type is also freaking hot-as-hell and horny as all get-out.

That’s when any logical approach on my behalf goes right out the window and I get sucked in because my libido goes into overdrive.  I admit to loving a little sex play, I can’t help it.

It sort of happened in January with Mr. Handsome and we had one great date.  I still hear from him randomly, but have no idea if/when he comes back my way.  He wasn’t especially sexual and didn’t ever cross any lines, so my libido was in check.  I think I was more star-struck with how handsome I thought he was.  I really am a sucker for a certain look in a man, it’s undeniable how that appeals to me on such a base level.

But, in late June, I matched with a guy from Boston that not only had the looks,  height, ambition and intelligence I like, but a rock-solid cut body and a sexy attitude to match.  He lives in Boston on the weekends with his girls, and works in my city during the week.  I checked and double checked, he isn’t married any longer, definitely divorced.

We started with a perfectly normal and intelligent text conversation and he asked me out for when he was in town again.  But, because the texting continued, the conversation ultimately turned and he asked if he could share photos.

Once I saw *most* of his body, I was sunk.  Awesome tattoos as well.  My libido brain took over and I could think of little else but how I wanted to fuck him. I was momentarily distracted by his text and allowed myself to think of being in his bed.

We continued to speak until he arrived in my city and he was unavailable the one night I was available, so it didn’t seem like we could make it happen then.  The more we spoke, the more I could tell he was becoming interested and when he suggested changing his plans around for a different night so he could see me, I agreed.  Then I told him I wouldn’t be staying over and the conversation flip-flopped.

He went back and forth between wanting to see me and wanting me to stay over but I held my ground.  I knew this was only sex, so I wasn’t so fussed about the situation, but I wanted to go home afterwards.  Is he going to be another one of those guys that wants the whole illusion of dating package like Ayden?  I just didn’t want to commit myself to sleeping over because who knew what I was going to think of him anyway.

We also have not spoken on the phone.

I held my ground and offered to come into the city and spend most of the evening, but refused to stay.  He wasn’t especially pressuring me, but he was confusing me and I didn’t want to succumb.  So I missed the chance to see him.  We played a bit more on text that evening and he eventually shared some gorgeous cock shots.  Oh. My. God.

Mind you, I shared no photos.  I told him I wouldn’t sext or share nude photos but he was welcome to do whatever he liked.

The next day he started up with text early and played a game with me.  He sent me photos of various sexual positions and I was to rate them 1-10.  He got a good calibration of what I liked!  We are very in sync with our sexual tastes and desires which is always a turn-on.  I also liked that I didn’t have to talk about sex and what I liked, I simply had to rate the photos.  I think that’s a great tactic!

I heard from him consistently while he was in my city, but now that he is back home I haven’t heard anything.

He’s another one that I do hope to hear from so we can have some fun together, but if it doesn’t come to fruition, that’s ok too.

I laugh a little at myself now when I write these posts.  I can remember, not so long ago, when a guy like this would have me wound up and I would make sure I kept in contact to try to ensure I had the opportunity to see him again.  Or, even when I would lose hope of meeting them, I would continue to waste my time with endless sext sessions.  Now, when I have a real opportunity to meet someone I might be interested in – sexually or for dating – I still invest some time, but don’t waste all my time thinking about them.  If it doesn’t work out with him, there will always be another.  Maybe not another just like him, maybe it will be a long time before another even shows up on my doorstep, but the fact remains that there will certainly be another.  And now that I have finally learned that valuable lesson, these men hold a much lower value in my eyes because I value myself first.

I do think both Boston and Mr. Handsome are worthwhile, assuming they make it back to my city and remain in contact.  Only time will tell, but they were both fun while they lasted.


Author: Madeline Harper

My journey through divorce and an emotional and sexual reawakening. Love, laughter, friendships, family and heartbreak included. And there is sex, lots of it, so close your eyes and turn the page if that's not for you! While I started this blog as an endeavor to journal my thoughts and feelings in an attempt to better understand myself, it has become an amazing platform from which I have met some of the most interesting and wonderful people in my life. My path is often crooked, but I hope you will share in the journey with me.

27 thoughts on “Hot! Hot! Hot!”

  1. I hope he does work out for you! But I’ve found that some men (Not all) use the excuse of us women not sending pictures, that was must not be who we say we are. I know.. crazy! But I’ve experienced that response more than once. I send them pics of myself fully clothed and still! LOL!

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    1. oh I sent clothed photos for sure, that I don’t mind. But I wasn’t about to start the nude photos – with anyone anymore unless we are really “dating”

      He’s so damn hot though he loves his body and I don’t blame him!


      1. I can indeed. From the earliest days of your blogging you assured us that you do learn, but it might take the long and winding road to get there. Patience, while not one of my virtues, has served and rewarded me well reading and participating in the blogging process.

        I, too, hope Mr. Boston returns to your city and communication with you to meet and see where it goes. But it’s nice to know you’re not consumed with waiting and trying desperately to make it happen.

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  2. This is a total mystery to me, all of this. Never dated any girl in a traditional sense, never been in any type of short-term or long term relationship, I’m a 24 year old who’s literally done almost nothing in this realm, and I know everyone thinks I’m weird for it, but I can’t bring myself to care, it just doesn’t bother me. I think I’m probably asexual somewhat. I am attracted to females, but I just cannot be bothered going out and trying to get laid with stunning frequency like all my friends do (they’re all like me, mid 20’s males, but they’re fucking crazy about getting girls, I don’t get it)…….just seems like somewhat of a waste of time and productivity, no offence ladies, but almost everything else in my life up to now is more important than trying to get with women. Women don’t like to hear this kind of thing generally I’ve found, sorry.
    (and yes, I know I’m not gay, my parents have asked me if I am, that was fucking horrendous, that dinner talk LOL).
    Nice post, I love reading about things that are totally new to me. 🙂

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    1. Hey SG, welcome. Well, maybe you are asexual or maybe your bi or even gay….you probably just need to explore what DOES turn YOU on and not worry so much about what turns your friends on!

      At your age it should be about exploration and what your desires are – it sounds to me like you just have yet discovered what those are…but when you do….you will have lots of fun with it!

      And thanks for the compliment on my post!

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      1. Hi. I’m certainly straight (I’ve known this for forever, like the time when I was 7 or 8 in the shopping mall and I was feeling up the mannequin’s tits, and memorably enjoying the feeling of those beautiful pillows of flesh, to the embarrassment of my mum and sisters! And many other instances of me being young and adoring the female form lol). I’m very much attracted to girls. It’s just never ‘happened’. What is your advice? Should I just get on a dating app?
        I think I’m almost certainly more intelligent and charming than most men out there, I’m just lacking in that crucial thing that women seem to love most of all………confidence and resources.
        I have a very small amount of confidence (confidence in my intellect and wit and that’s it) , but almost no resources (I earn next to nothing – 75 bucks a week) no girl is interested in getting with a guy who earns that amount……….right?!

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      2. I don’t know what advice to give you…you are in a very different place in your life than I am – so perhaps your friends are the best support network you can find. That’s who I depend upon!

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      1. Ah….hey….I figure if you’re going to send those pictures…you shouldn’t be surprised it they “land” somewhere they shouldn’t. LOL
        You know what that shark says….once it’s out there….it’s out there forever.
        But that dude is pretty cute!


      2. I don’t disagree, but I am afraid it would be such a violation of privacy should anyone ever find the blog….I never put up real photos (unless it’s like the catfish and the dude isn’t real to begin with)


  3. Yum! I like his style too. I was seeing this guy about a year ago that whenever he wanted me to come over, he would send me a series of gifs of what he wanted to do to me. It was always a sexy surprise to get me thinking about him. Hopefully you get to meet up with him.

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  4. Great read! My friends and I were chatting the other day how we use to go for bad boys but as we get older we find that they are living at home with their mums most of the time and unemployed with heaps of baby mammas

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