Couch to 5k – Week 2

Week 2

Day 1 – Friday

I had a weird cramp earlier this week in my right leg and it woke me again early this morning.  better safe than sorry, I decided to call the doctor.  I went for a quick scan and found there are no new blood clots and nothing that should be creating the cramp from my previous concerns.  The doctor thinks (like Marty) maybe I am trying to take on too much too soon with the exercise and to slow it down and be sure I hydrate more often.

I am to be off my feet for a few days.

That officially derails my 28 day plan. Boo

(oh and like I’m really sorry I can’t exercise a few days…not!)

Ok, this just means I keep eating properly and I can start exercise on Monday again.

Day 2/3 – Saturday / Sunday

Easy because I don’t even need to feel guilty.  But what about tomorrow?  The thought of rising early makes me already not even want to start.

I did have a pang of guilt ask watched my sons soccer game (of which he played 6 minutes)  and saw a woman getting her laps in around the track   I could have done that  …. Easily.   But I wasn’t supposed to so I will leave it at that.

My eating sucked all weekend, there were just too many things going on to be strict.

Day 4 – Monday

I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I have no excuse, really.  My eating was spot on but exhaustion took over and I neither made it out of bed early enough or home early enough to work out.  I was in bed asleep at 8:30pm.  I feel troubled this week,

Day 5 – Tuesday

The good news is that I woke with a much better attitude today and have convinced myself I must have needed the rest for whatever reason I needed it.

The overall feeling of sadness didn’t entirely life but at least I felt capable today.

I got home and got dressed all the whole debating myself should I/shouldn’t I/must I?! I did it though, got out in the daylight and put on the app.

I finish my 5 minute warm up walk and start the first jog and what the hell happens to me? My pants fall down!  Well, slip down. I pull them all the way up under my boobs just about and keep going. Nope. They are just not staying up. God damn it.

I can turn around and go home to change pants or keep going. If I go home I bet I don’t make it back out. This debate goes on for a few minutes and now I’m too far to turn back around. I do a regular 4 mile walk with no run.

Ok, it’s something. Clearly I need better thought to the pants I wear on cooler evenings!  No one wants to see butt crack!

I felt good but I still hate it. I’m not so sure all that time alone in my head is even good for me. I think too much. Of the wrong things

Day 6 – Wednesday

I am pretty certain this nonsense only happens to me.  I set the alarm for 5:50am and rolled over to shut it off when I heard someone in the house using the bathroom and heading downstairs.  My youngest son decided to get up in the morning and go on the treadmill?  What the heck?    He was on for about 20 minutes, but by then it was too late for me to start.  Ah, at least I got an extra hour sleep.

I did make it home and jump on after picking up my son from soccer practice and before a 2 hour conference call.

Today started 1 minute 20 seconds of running…seriously, I think I might die the longer I have to run!  I have no rhythm, I nearly tripped running too close to the front of the treadmill and knocked over my bottle of water!  But I did the work and made it through another day of that app.

 

Day 7 – Thursday

Set the alarm to get up early and guess who didn’t.  I really hate mornings.

Our babysitter just ran a marathon and knows I am attempting the 5k, so she said I just have to take it easy with my pace.  I asked her how fast she runs on the treadmill and she said “7.0” and I laughed and told her I was at “4.5….was that slow enough?!”  She sort of smirked at me and turned back to making the kids lunch.

Further, I was supposed to see the therapist tonight and cancelled a therapy appointment in favor of a drink…and of course, one drink turned into many, many drinks and a fun and crazy night.  I probably consumed a weeks worth of calories in the “Booty Collins” I was drinking!  And of course this meant the evening clearly included no exercise.  

 

This is a perfect example of how I promise myself I will get started and I will do well…and then fail.  I don’t know what it takes for me to finally gain the right motivation to get it done.  Or, in other words, I don’t know what it takes for me to make a good decision for myself…like: stop mourning the loss of my last relationship and start exercising so I feel great when I start the next relationship.  Loser.  The entire key is in front of me.  I have a feeling if I can get this exercise routine started, he will start to fade from my thoughts as well.

Anyway…..I am happy I still got in 2 days of moving, even after the doctor said slow down.  I did eliminate the strength exercises this week and had no cramps.

My eating was solid and although I told myself I would fast this week, the day I chose I realized I was unprepared with the correct liquids at work, so I just kept up the shake routine.  I drank more alcohol than I should have. 

I still lost another 1.5 lbs, so I am not complaining.

I am going to consider a very soft start better than no start.

 

Author: Madeline Harper

My journey through divorce and an emotional and sexual reawakening. Love, laughter, friendships, family and heartbreak included. And there is sex, lots of it, so close your eyes and turn the page if that's not for you! While I started this blog as an endeavor to journal my thoughts and feelings in an attempt to better understand myself, it has become an amazing platform from which I have met some of the most interesting and wonderful people in my life. My path is often crooked, but I hope you will share in the journey with me.

30 thoughts on “Couch to 5k – Week 2”

  1. Slow progress is better than no progress, so keep at it!

    Could there be a bit of self-sabotage going on? I ask, because I realised I do it with myself; that staying unfit and carrying a few extra pounds is some sort of ‘protection’ / permission to be sad(?!) – if I look great and feel great, then somehow it doesn’t fit (in my head) with being over ‘him’….. Sorry, kind of jumbled the words, but hope they make sense!

    Re. your cramps – do you take Magnesium supplements? One before bed can really help (plus of course it’s great for your cardio health). I take B12 pills (Nervidox) which are the same strength as the IM injections and really great for evening out my energy levels.

    You’ve got this Mads! ❤ x

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    1. I have self-sabotage on the brain this week (watch for the more juicy posts relating to that!!) I really think I’m just lazy – I like being sexy and I like looking at myself being sexy in a mirror when naked (I have yet to experience that but I convince myself that I would like it when it happens!!!)
      Hey good info on the pills – where do you buy them? I would like to try both!

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  2. I am still impressed! I have yet to even start with all of these things that you are doing. I postpone it all the time. I know I will start eventually, it is just sooo hard with the motivation when you are extremely tired. Oh well, here is to hoping. Good luck, keep at it. 🙂

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  3. Your words made me smile again. All this stupid shit happens to me and I think I’M the only one. My last run was 2 days ago and MY running pants kept coming down and I would hike them up while running, which I’m sure was a very attractive sight for the neighbors. If you live in my part of the world, today is a gorgeous day outside. Just do it. I will, just as soon as I drag my arse outta bed.

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    1. I did not lose my pants today – hooray!! haha. I am secretly pleased this happens to you…though I truly don’t wish it upon anyone!! It was utterly amazing out today and I am so thrilled I got in all that fresh air!

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  4. Your pace is your pace. Don’t let someone else make you feel like it’s “fast” or “slow”.
    If you don’t, try running outside. It’s much easier to not get caught up in pace outside. I’ve run 4 marathons and running on the treadmill for 3 miles makes me want to stab my eyes out

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    1. Oh, she wasn’t making me feel slow- she was definitely trying to tell me take it at my own pace…but she had no idea how slow!! lol.
      I had a hard time running outside today – there is definitely a different cadence. Everyone I know who loves running says the same thing though – get outside!

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  5. From personal and current experience, I know how hard it is getting started with exercise. Hell, 6 months into it I know how hard it is to get up and keep going. I also learned eliminating words like “fail” and “loser” from my thinking about myself helps enormously to keep me motivated to keep trying, and from there, very slowly succeeding.

    I am married to a man who now runs at least 15 miles every single day, is incredibly disciplined about his strict diet, and yet somehow manages to be encouraging and proud of me and what feels like my frequently faltering efforts and barely moving progress in comparison. So I stopped comparing. I stopped feeling like I was falling behind all our friends who are fit and everyone else I see at the gym and focusing on what I could do today.

    Take it slowly and do what you can do when you are able to logistically make it work. And keep writing about it! I have found writing about my struggles and successes to be enormously helping in sticking with it.

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      1. Nope, not weird at all. I still frequently feel as if I am the only one still struggling after months of twice weekly meetings with a trainer and 5 days of practice in between. It does not come naturally to me, but I am seeing far more clearly these days how absolutely necessary it is for me to be healthy enough to truly enjoy living my life.

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      2. I agree with you – I think that the results are ultimately what changes our minds to do the healthy routines – so the beginnings are not easy.

        I still think it should be easier! Lol. Every day I debate with myself And you know how stubborn I can be!!

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  6. Stop beating yourself up!!!! I forbid you to use words like loser and failure! When my sister started running, a year after I had, her pace was my walking pace, but to encourage her I just slowed down and we ran together….slowly her paced improved. A run isn’t against others, it’s really only yourself and your own time….your pace is your own and you should be proud for what you do accomplish!

    I am worried about your health and i do hope you don’t push yourself too much…listen to your body, sleep when you need to and move your body when you can..that is success!

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    1. Thanks Sassy! I like the encouragement and motivation!
      Running today was not pretty and I couldn’t complete the circuit…I will just have to try again tomorrow. I find the breathing so incredibly difficult.

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      1. I need to find you this breathing chart thingy I had found last year..it totally helped me learn to breath in pace with my running. I have always hated cardio because I never feel like I can breath and I always feel like I am gasping for air.. but this thing I found helped. I will look for it for you.

        When I used the couch to 5k the first time there were weeks I had to repeat. The 9 week program took me 13 weeks but I eventually got there!!! Go easy on yourself and mostly be kind to yourself!!!

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      2. omg you just gave me inspiration – you had to repeat weeks? I don’t feel so terrible – I just couldn’t do it today….! yay! thanks Sassy!
        If you do find that breathing thing please send it – I will also google that – hand’t thought of it before.

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      3. Yep! I wouldn’t move to the next day until the one day was done properly. Lots of people have to repeat. If it takes a bit longer to finish it, who cares? In the end you will be running longer than you previously thought possible, so it’s all a win!

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  7. Is there another exercise that might be better? I hate to run – I power walk for cardio – but love other stuff. Just wondering if that might make a difference. Anyway running is apparently super hard on our joints :/

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    1. I love power walking but I really really want to run the 5k…so it may be that my only running goal is the 5k. Once I get the all clear from the doctors in June I plan to go back to kick boxing! And spin!
      Yea, hurting old joints = not good!

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  8. At least you got out the door this week! A start is a start. The key thing is to build regular exercise into your routine. Just like brushing your teeth. You don’t have to think about it. And don’t worry about the pace. What you can do is what you can do. The whole point is not what you can do today, but rather what you can do a month from now, and 2 months from now. I’ll also add to Ann’s comment on biking. It would be good overall to maybe add a bike ride in every 3rd outing in place of your run. Biking will still help you on your 5k quest, plus it offers a bit of variation for you, and also will give your joints some rest from the pounding of running. This is especially important in your early days as adaptation takes a while. It’s very easy to be eager and overdo it in the beginning, and end up injured.

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